a love song

a very nice song that makes you want to huggle your special someone :)

Love you J.J.W

Sad that my sister is going away

My hope for my sister and friend that can outlast any other..........is that you never settle for the path of least resistance.

I love you Tiffers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Like everynight that has come and gone before it... This too shall pass

J.J.W I love you!

Isn't it funny

Ne-yo is the man!

This song is sooo sweet

I keep telling myself

My Fav Song Right Now

Love Song

IF LOVE TOLD BY: JOHNNA B

If love had a face it would look just like yours
If love had could be put into words it would read “Lucky I’m in love with my best friend”
If love were a kiss it would be feel cold and always be desirable, it would never get old
If love were a joke it would be an insider, something for just you and I
If love were a fairytale we would have met at 5 years old and stayed together forever
If love had a definition it would be Love: (noun) Jahmil Jeremiah Witherspoon
If love were a treat it would be a fudge brownie, something so yummy it could erase any trouble
If love gives me my way I will still be loving you when you are 88 and I am 89
If love were a couple it would be named Johnna and Jahmil, lovers and friends

How I'm dealing with the pain

When I realized that forever isn't promised I decided to take advantage of the time I have, loving my family while they are around, letting love change my life, and laughing with my bestfriends until it hurts.

I felt like a princess

Kisses from Mickey
and
Arriving at the magic kingdom!

so the first week in July my bf took me to orlando florida to disney world...oh and
I must say it was a magical experience. I had sooo much fun. I the time of my life.

I serve you notice

Dear life,

It's not that I don't care, I just know that the fight ain't fair. But don't you worry I will win this one :)


JB

Here's one for all the conformists and the haters

TLC - my favorite girl group....

Jahmil J Witherspoon

I feel more and more in love each time I hear this.

Looks like love :)

I'm addicted to his chocolate high

today

Its been a crazy day.... work sucked!!! but my boyfriend is amazing and we are going to disney world in 2 weeks and a few days yay!!! ahhh i'm in love :) Well I have a ton of homeowrk to do so I will try to update again soon :)

I LOVE THIS SONG

the honeymoon phase has ended but....

Video blog

i'm not trying to turn this into a video blog but lately
I haven't had much time to write since I started grad school. YAY me!! but I want to share whats on my mind so expect more songs!

I've got proof

One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch girls!!!

He heals me

I'm sure you are sorry

Could have loved you forever
all I asked is that you be faithful
and you said never
i was always there for you
through everything
being the one you could count on
love me forever I begged
and you just kept saying hold on
I couldn't do it
I needed you to be there for me
I was going through a lot
and you were so caught up in your own mess
that you just couldn't see
How much I needed you so
I had to be strong and move on
I gave my everything to you
so I had to start from scratch
I had nothing left
I gave it all to you
Nothing can compare
to the emptiness I felt
when you left
My pride couldn't beg you to stay
Naw that could never be me
So I had to move on
You stopped treating me right
So you had to get gone
Dont be mad at me
you asked for this
It sucks don't it
Now my kiss is the number one thing
that you will always miss



3/14/2009
6:32 pm

For L.B
By J.M.B

Woman

I am a woman
Love me
Hold me
Show me
Keep me
Kiss me
Thrill me
Always be with me
Don't take advantage of my weakness
Or set me up to fail only so you can gain your hearts desire
Instead why not hold me hand as we plan to build a wonderful life and talk about our love that will last forever
Because I am a woman and you will...
Love me
Hold me
Show me
Keep me
Kiss me
Thrill me
And always be with me
Sincerely promise not to take advantage of me but to always think of me
Promise me you will always think of me first and give me your last
Because I am a woman and you will
Love me
Hold me
Show me
Keep me
Kiss me
Thrill me
And always be with me
Our love will last forever growing stronger with each passing hour
We will stand strong no matter what trials may come. You will be the strong man you were created to be and I will follow you be supportive
Loving you
Holding you
Showing you
Keeping you
Kissing you
Thrilling you
And always being with you
Because I am a woman and you will
Love me
Hold me
Show me
Keep me
Kiss me
Thrill me
And always be with me


Written by: Johnna Michelle

Boy, was I wrong

Giving my heart to you
Perfect, So I thought
We would be so good together
Perfect, we would be PERFECT
Close friends
Great conversation
We are so different
But so much alike
We already got along because
We were always so close
our feelings for each other were already strong
It seemed like it was only right
And that together we belonged
But boy was I wrong
maybe it was our age difference
Which seemed so small and insignificant
Perhaps it was that which made you continue
to keep chasing other girls
To keep searching for the love
That was always there
The love you ran to when it really mattered
Eventually, much sooner than later
You will be hurt just like I am now
Someday you will come to claim you place
As my man, my lover, my friend
But you will find that someone else is
In your place, filling the space
That you thought belonged to you
The space that you were sure would always be there
When you returned...
But you left me waiting in the cold for too long
and the bridge to my love was burned



Written for: M.D.F
Written for: J.M.B

1/14/2009

confused & hurt

Sometimes I sit and wonder why you treat me so bad
All that I have ever done is love you
Love you more than anyone else ever has
It just doesn't make sense
I have this longing to please you
Although I know that I really don't need you
I feel like I need you in my life
I don't even want you
After all the things that we have been through
I offered you all of my love
And you just took it and stuffed it in your pocket
To pull out and play with it whenever you get bored
or need some attention or affirmation
As I sit back and cry
Wondering why if you call me your best friend
One of the women that you will do almost anything for
How could you just play with my feelings and act like its okay
Maybe if you saw my tears
Or knew how such this has changed me
You wouldn't be such a jerk
And I wouldn't always be so sad


Written by: J.M.B
Written for: M.D.F


1/14/2009

The awakening...

All this time
I thought it was me
I blamed myself for all of our problems
When the truth is that all of our troubles
Begin and end with you
I could never make you things right
Because I haven't done anything wrong
I spent years wishing that you would come around
And things would get better
Sitting around daydreaming about our happy ending
Has done nothing but left me with a heart
Full of empty, unfulfilled fairy tales


Written for: M.D.F
Written by: J.M.B


1/14/2009
9:05 a.m

Just so you know....

Even if you're not wondering...
It's important that you know
I love you
I really do
I'm not trying to play with your emotions
Thats why I play it cool
I know that right now
I don't know what I am going to do
When it comes to having a relationship
Sometimes I'm excited and feel ready
And other days I just don't feel sure
And I just want to shut down
We are so close
And I care about your feelings
So much that even when I want to shutdown
I just don't
I try my best to share my feelings
That I don't even understand
I am confident that we can get past this
Just hold my hand
Don't give up on me
All I am really trying to say is that
My heart is in pieces
That are scattered
Stuck in the hands of this person and that
But I'm on a mission to collect all those pieces
Because I want to give them to you.


Written for: J.J.W
Written by: J.M.B

1/14/09

Feelin so low...

If anyone has ever made me feel bad, feel stupid or low it is you. Whenever I feel good you push me higher,as if i'm sitting with the clouds and then you kick me down with my face to the ground and laugh as if its funny. Your love is just so confusing because if I would ever dare leave, you be hurt but you act as if I don't matter. Sometimes as if you don't even want me around...Bestfriends...If this is how you treat me ... I should warn your enemies.

Written for: M.D.F

Written by: J.M.B

1/14/09

My hoodie
It may not be perfect but its all I know

Its always there when I need it
Tucked away in the same spot
Ready and willing to keep me warm when the weather is cold
Sometimes the most comfortable things are old
I’m so afraid to try to replace it with something new
Even if it seems like the new hoodie might be warmer
The style is more current
Old faithful provides me with a sense of security
I am already used to the way it fits me
Im afraid to replace it
Because lets face it
We all know that one I give it up
If the new one doesn’t fit as good
Or turn on to be as cute as it looked on the rack
Then I may not be able to just take it back
And go back to wearing my old one like nothing happened
I’m afraid to get a new one because though the old one my not be the best
It is all I know…


Written by : JMB

Trying new things….hoping to ease the fear

My First Love

My first love

Not my first schoolyard crush,
Or just some boy whispering sweet nothings
To make me blush
The boy who grew into the man
That I planned to love forever
We were inseparable
My every thought was of you
I loved you so much you even found your way
Into my dreams at night
Even now after so many years have passed
Hearing you name or seeing your picture
Takes me back through the years
To the day we met, our first date
That was a night I will never forget
I know it has been so long
But honestly there are
Some songs I just cant listen to
Because they remind me of you
And all of the things that we could have been
It’s safe to say that I still love you
I always have and always will
I have never loved a man the same since
I’m not saying it wasn’t real
It jus wasn’t as intense
I haven’t cried, like I did for you
I still haven’t found anyone that I need
As much as I have needed you
All the man I dreamed of I found in you
As wild as it is, I might be down for round 2
If I knew that you were down too


12/28/2008
Written by: J.M.B
For: My first love… D.R.H

Airing it out

Airing it out

Because I'm a coward
I act all big and strong
My fearless personality
has become one of my standout traits

Maybe saying that I am a coward
takes it a few steps too far
I truly am fearless
There's only one thing that scares me...

And that thing is LOVE
falling in it, never finding it, having mine abused
All of the usual things and the pain that they bring

Cause me to push away
all of the men who love me
I'M AFRAID TO BE LOVED


I am afraid to be loved
I hope that what everyone
wanted to hear
Because it's the truth

Pathetic????
No, just plain crazy
The only thing I want so desperately

I go running in the other direction
anytime it gets close

As the old school cliche goes
Baby its not you, its me

It really is
Truth is
I have some serious issues with love


If you want to back out
I understand
I guess it wasn't meant to work
anyhow


I never really could grasp
that whole unmerited love thing

I know that I love
people who don't deserve it

But I never thought that anyone
could do the same for me

Love me, even at my unloveable moments
At the lowest points of my life


I guess its my own fault
for never noticing all the love
that was right in front of my face.

So I guess I can't be mad that
I'm stuck in this place.
Loveless and alone.



12/19/2008
9:12 pm

Written by J.M.B

For that love I didn't notice until it was too late :(
J.J.W

Fighting for my love

I can't give up
Because we've loved each other for too long
Aside from that my feelings are just too strong
Not even time, which changes everything was able to make these feelings subside
That makes me feel like you are supposed to be mine
In the past I've made some mistakes
bad decisions that made you give up on me
But im fighting for my love, baby giving up is something we just can't do
I've tried to clean up the mess I've made
When we met I was young and wild
I didn't mean to hurt you
I was so caught up, chasing something I catch
Searching for something more
I never found anyone better because I already had the best
I'm different now and I've learned from my mistakes
Please just give me another chance
Because i'm fighting for my love
I'm fighting for you
I'm fighting for us
I'm gonna try to make it work this time

Issues with Love

So many times I watch men make mistakes
with the way that they treat the women
who love them.

Yet I consistently torture the men in
my life by imitating the same behaviors
I despise.

I've come to realize that this wretched
cycle is only leading to my hearts demise.

Break the cycle yes I should. If I could I
swear I would but its so deep in me that
its hard to change.

Place my heart in someones hands.
You don't understand. Me, I just can't.
Now what if they break it???
Then who is to blame?


12/12/2008
Written by: JMB
For: All the men who have ever cared about me

IDK

Its killing me
This whole love thing
Is about to send me over the edge
You lied, cheated,never once
tried to consider my feelings
No not until it was too late
When my heart was already broken
Only a man will try to dry your tears
The minute you've stopped crying
When I was dying
And I couldn't stop the tears
from streaming down my face
You was nowhere to be found
But now you wants peace
I should just throw my feelings in a box
And make nice because its the right thing to do
Even as a child I never liked to play nice, so
Oh hell no
You're hurt, I'm hurt
Sadly we hurt each other
It's broken
I don't know how to fix it
Because I hate you
But I love you
I don't know how we even got here
How did we mess this up so bad
It used to be so AMAZING
Now it's just crazy


12:09 pm
11/16/2008
Written by JMB
For LB

I blame my stupid heart

Love is something I really don't want
Somehow it always finds me
And messes with my head
I blame my heart
For loving you and all the others that came before
I just don't understand
What we really need love for?
You know
Most times it isn't useful
It only cause problems
Pain and heartache
I blame my stupid heart
For falling in love with your eyes
We used to have a great time just talking and hanging out
But I guess those are the things people do when they fall in love
Well to be friends we had to do those same things
So I guess I should blame my stupid heart
For feeling all these stupid things
I blame all of those children's books that I read as a little girl
For making me think I had some knight in shining armor waiting
When really theres no one there
Just my stupid heart and its stupid feelings
That ruined my relationship with my best friend.


Love you M.D.F
11/2/2008

Always J.M.B

Thanks for making me a fighter!

Just a reminder
Come what may
Im still standing
All the people and things in life
that have tired to break me
And tear me down
have not succeeded
Im still standing
Still here
The most anyone
has succeeded in doing
is getting on my nerves
Sometimes I felt sad
Just a little tho
But im still standing
With tears in my eyes
Still standing....
With a broken heart
Still standing....
Damaged pride
Still standing....
Minus a couple friends
Still standing....
So don't waste your time trying to tear me down.
It won't work
You see my strength lies
In the hands of somebody bigger than you or I.


By: J.M.B
7:31 am
10/9/2008

Love Love vs. Friendship

Love Love vs Friendship

I don't really know if I love love you
But what I do know is that I love you
I love the way you are always there
To support me, to strengthen me
When I am afraid or feel like I can't go on
I don't know if I love love you like to be
Kissing and hugging you
But I love our conversations
The way you always seem to call just when I need to talk
And when I try to pretend like everything is alright
You notice and we talk about it until I truly am okay
I don't know if I love love you like drawing hearts around our names
But I do love the person that you are
The way you are open and honest even when it is difficult to be.
I love the way you are responsible for your actions
and acknowledge your wrongs
even when that is the path you choose to take.
Maybe I do love love you
but I'm not sure if I love love you
or I just love love our friendship.
But I do know that I will love you forever
even if we are never really in love love.

For: M.D.F
Always J.M.B
10/4/2008
8:14 am

Us and the pursuit of happiness

Us and the pursuit of happiness

So I wonder
If it was a mistake
When I said yes
You remember the first time
You asked me on a date
The pursuit of happiness
I believe it was
Since we split up
And went our separate ways
I don't really know
If true happiness knows me anymore
Since then I have spent so much money
Buying things trying to fills the void you left
In pursuit of the happiness I once felt
Shoes,purses,gadgets galore
It's crazy just can't recreate it
That amazing feeling
A touch, a kiss, a laugh from you brings
Or the feeling I got the first time
You told me I made you heart sing
I wonder if I should have said no that day
Would it have prevented me from feeling this way



10/1/2008

For L.B

Always
J.M.B

The Man Behind the Glass

The man behind the glass

Scares me because I just don’t understand but…
Maybe you protect yourself this way
So that you don’t end up hurting
But it hurts me to deal with you
Always so strong, so stern, sometimes even harsh
What it is that draws me to you
I don’t even know
I couldn’t even begin to explain
And if I tried you would never understand
Why a place in your heart is all I truly seek after
Oftentimes I am on the verge of giving up
And just ending my quest for a piece of your love
Although I know you feel it too
I need you to stop being so afraid of getting hurt
Because it makes you shut me out
You close me off from the deepest parts of you
Which is where I desire to be
Day after day I attempt to break into that glass case
Where you keep your heart locked away
You just don’t understand
How badly I want to be there
Or how much I just want to hold you hand
But right now I just feel like giving up
Many months have passed
And I have yet to come close to touching
The man behind the glass





9/28/2008
9:57am
For K.B

The awkwardness, I love it

I need you to stare at me
And make me so nervous
That I am afraid to look up
Make me laugh
When I am so mad
That I want to punch you
Seeing you makes my heart race
So much
That I can feel the pounding in my chest
Leave me speechless
By the sound of your singing
Kiss me slowly
So that I can get that blank stare
As I become wrapped up
In thoughts of you
When i'm hot
Whisper in my ear
A cool breeze
And give me the chills.



Written sometime in march

It feels like it will never happen...

Im thinkin damn
It must not be meant to be
Everytime it seems like things
Are gonna work out
And we will be together
Something happens
Something that changes everything
Bringing a stop to all of the progress we've made
It crazy how perfectly we fit together
You and Me, Me and You
But everytime I think its coming it doesn't work out
It seems like we are destined to be an almost...a possiblity...a could have been... a should've been...the best thing we never had...
Damn... I wonder why we just can't be destined to be together happily

The awesomeness of me, the awesomeness of you

The Awesomeness of me, The awesomeness of you
Over the years I have learned that few people can truly grasp the awesomeness of me
Actually many people realize the awesomeness of me
But they are jealous
So they try to dumb down my intelligence
By encouraging me to do things that my better judgment knows are wrong
Or they get really close to you and pretend to be your buddy
Only to try and find out the secret to your inner strength
Those types of people don't really love you they just want to be like you
So keep a watchful eye, those types always show signs
A lot of people know about the awesomeness of you
Because they can't handle it
They think people like me and people like you
Are too good to be true
They think that
Spending time and investing love into us will only leave them hurting and lonely
Don't be discouraged
When you find it hard to obtain love
Because as crazy as it sounds
A lot of people just can't handle
The awesomeness of me or the awesomeness of you
Also a lot of people don't understand
The awesomeness that you possess
So don't feel like they are trying to dismiss you
Its just that
Generally people don't like to cling to things that they can't comprehend
Don't take it personally when you find out certain people just can't be your friend
Whenever you need someone to talk to or lean on
Let that person be me
Because I understand what you are going through
I've been there
And I know and love the awesomeness of you because its just like the awesomeness of me

9/4/08
12:35 p.m
A letter to my Lil' bro
With awesome love,
Your big sis

Getting Tired

Getting tired

Im getting tired
Of waiting
For you to come around
Of waiting
For you to stop playing games
You want me and we both know it
So come and claim what's yours
Because...
Im getting tired
Of wanting
Wanting to see you all the time and never getting the chance
Of wanting
To kiss you before I go to bed at night
Its about time for you to make that move
Because...
I'm getting tired
Of longing
To be your one and only
Of longing
To constantly be in your arms day and night
I am trying to hold out but its so hard
You have to hurry up
Because...
I'm getting tired
So very tired


8/30/08
4:22pm
For: K.B

Much More

Much More

To me its more than just a thought
More than just a smile
It makes me blush and leads my mind to daydream for awhile
Its more than just a note
Its a reminder of the moment
Where even if just briefly
I crossed your mind
To me its more than just a joke
its not funny at all
Its something that's on my mind all day long
For me its so much more serious than you could ever imagine
To me its like a wish or a dream that only you can make come true.
To me its so much more


4:29pm
8/30/08

K.B

I knew

I knew I loved you before we even met

I always knew that someday we would cross paths

I wasn’t sure when or how

But I knew it would happen someday

I had been waiting all of my teenage years

For you to come and be a part of my life

At times I would date other guys

Trying to make them fit the mold that only you were created for

It never worked out

And the relationships didn’t last

Because I tried to make them be you

Which is something that only you can do

It was already planned for us to meet now

And our relationship is destined to be

When I was a little girl I made list

Of all the things I wanted in a man

And over the years I have kept adding to it

But I could never find anyone that fit the bill

A few came close

One so close that

I had completely given up on finding you

I figured he was close enough

However we all know that almost doesn’t count

I need the real thing

When I met you I knew it was you

And for awhile I was scared

I wasn’t going to approach you

I was going to let you slip away right before my eyes

Then I realized it would be crazy to let you get away

I have been waiting for you all of my life

Everything inside me tells me that this is right

And you are the one I have been hoping for,waiting for, praying for

I knew I loved you before I met you

4:08 pm

8/28/08

for K.B

Hurt like no other

Am I ok?

NO!!!!

What’s wrong with me?

Ugh let me see…

I was fine all day until I saw you

First, you made me smile

Then, you distracted me from the task at hand

I guess maybe it was my fault, that I just can’t stop staring

Next, you made me want to be with you

Then, smiled and said well we should just be friends

FRIENDS!!!!!

Let me ask you a few serious questions….

Do I look like I need another friend?

Have you ever had a friend as hott as me?

As much as I try its really hard

Being just friends with a guy that you want to be with

So if you see me hang my head or staring into space

Just know that I am fine

I have a million thought running through my mind

About how I would love to occupy the space right by your side



For: K.B
8/28/08

This aching feeling

Ugh this feeling is the worst
There's nothing I want more
Than the man who thinks im all wrong for him
All I want is a chance
I just want him to try
I don't usually make promises
But I promise he will never want to leave
The girl who with a relationship right now he just can't see

This aching feeling
8/24/08

For K.B