confused & hurt

Sometimes I sit and wonder why you treat me so bad
All that I have ever done is love you
Love you more than anyone else ever has
It just doesn't make sense
I have this longing to please you
Although I know that I really don't need you
I feel like I need you in my life
I don't even want you
After all the things that we have been through
I offered you all of my love
And you just took it and stuffed it in your pocket
To pull out and play with it whenever you get bored
or need some attention or affirmation
As I sit back and cry
Wondering why if you call me your best friend
One of the women that you will do almost anything for
How could you just play with my feelings and act like its okay
Maybe if you saw my tears
Or knew how such this has changed me
You wouldn't be such a jerk
And I wouldn't always be so sad


Written by: J.M.B
Written for: M.D.F


1/14/2009