Boy, was I wrong

Giving my heart to you
Perfect, So I thought
We would be so good together
Perfect, we would be PERFECT
Close friends
Great conversation
We are so different
But so much alike
We already got along because
We were always so close
our feelings for each other were already strong
It seemed like it was only right
And that together we belonged
But boy was I wrong
maybe it was our age difference
Which seemed so small and insignificant
Perhaps it was that which made you continue
to keep chasing other girls
To keep searching for the love
That was always there
The love you ran to when it really mattered
Eventually, much sooner than later
You will be hurt just like I am now
Someday you will come to claim you place
As my man, my lover, my friend
But you will find that someone else is
In your place, filling the space
That you thought belonged to you
The space that you were sure would always be there
When you returned...
But you left me waiting in the cold for too long
and the bridge to my love was burned



Written for: M.D.F
Written for: J.M.B

1/14/2009

confused & hurt

Sometimes I sit and wonder why you treat me so bad
All that I have ever done is love you
Love you more than anyone else ever has
It just doesn't make sense
I have this longing to please you
Although I know that I really don't need you
I feel like I need you in my life
I don't even want you
After all the things that we have been through
I offered you all of my love
And you just took it and stuffed it in your pocket
To pull out and play with it whenever you get bored
or need some attention or affirmation
As I sit back and cry
Wondering why if you call me your best friend
One of the women that you will do almost anything for
How could you just play with my feelings and act like its okay
Maybe if you saw my tears
Or knew how such this has changed me
You wouldn't be such a jerk
And I wouldn't always be so sad


Written by: J.M.B
Written for: M.D.F


1/14/2009

The awakening...

All this time
I thought it was me
I blamed myself for all of our problems
When the truth is that all of our troubles
Begin and end with you
I could never make you things right
Because I haven't done anything wrong
I spent years wishing that you would come around
And things would get better
Sitting around daydreaming about our happy ending
Has done nothing but left me with a heart
Full of empty, unfulfilled fairy tales


Written for: M.D.F
Written by: J.M.B


1/14/2009
9:05 a.m

Just so you know....

Even if you're not wondering...
It's important that you know
I love you
I really do
I'm not trying to play with your emotions
Thats why I play it cool
I know that right now
I don't know what I am going to do
When it comes to having a relationship
Sometimes I'm excited and feel ready
And other days I just don't feel sure
And I just want to shut down
We are so close
And I care about your feelings
So much that even when I want to shutdown
I just don't
I try my best to share my feelings
That I don't even understand
I am confident that we can get past this
Just hold my hand
Don't give up on me
All I am really trying to say is that
My heart is in pieces
That are scattered
Stuck in the hands of this person and that
But I'm on a mission to collect all those pieces
Because I want to give them to you.


Written for: J.J.W
Written by: J.M.B

1/14/09

Feelin so low...

If anyone has ever made me feel bad, feel stupid or low it is you. Whenever I feel good you push me higher,as if i'm sitting with the clouds and then you kick me down with my face to the ground and laugh as if its funny. Your love is just so confusing because if I would ever dare leave, you be hurt but you act as if I don't matter. Sometimes as if you don't even want me around...Bestfriends...If this is how you treat me ... I should warn your enemies.

Written for: M.D.F

Written by: J.M.B

1/14/09