The Man Behind the Glass

The man behind the glass

Scares me because I just don’t understand but…
Maybe you protect yourself this way
So that you don’t end up hurting
But it hurts me to deal with you
Always so strong, so stern, sometimes even harsh
What it is that draws me to you
I don’t even know
I couldn’t even begin to explain
And if I tried you would never understand
Why a place in your heart is all I truly seek after
Oftentimes I am on the verge of giving up
And just ending my quest for a piece of your love
Although I know you feel it too
I need you to stop being so afraid of getting hurt
Because it makes you shut me out
You close me off from the deepest parts of you
Which is where I desire to be
Day after day I attempt to break into that glass case
Where you keep your heart locked away
You just don’t understand
How badly I want to be there
Or how much I just want to hold you hand
But right now I just feel like giving up
Many months have passed
And I have yet to come close to touching
The man behind the glass





9/28/2008
9:57am
For K.B

The awkwardness, I love it

I need you to stare at me
And make me so nervous
That I am afraid to look up
Make me laugh
When I am so mad
That I want to punch you
Seeing you makes my heart race
So much
That I can feel the pounding in my chest
Leave me speechless
By the sound of your singing
Kiss me slowly
So that I can get that blank stare
As I become wrapped up
In thoughts of you
When i'm hot
Whisper in my ear
A cool breeze
And give me the chills.



Written sometime in march

It feels like it will never happen...

Im thinkin damn
It must not be meant to be
Everytime it seems like things
Are gonna work out
And we will be together
Something happens
Something that changes everything
Bringing a stop to all of the progress we've made
It crazy how perfectly we fit together
You and Me, Me and You
But everytime I think its coming it doesn't work out
It seems like we are destined to be an almost...a possiblity...a could have been... a should've been...the best thing we never had...
Damn... I wonder why we just can't be destined to be together happily

The awesomeness of me, the awesomeness of you

The Awesomeness of me, The awesomeness of you
Over the years I have learned that few people can truly grasp the awesomeness of me
Actually many people realize the awesomeness of me
But they are jealous
So they try to dumb down my intelligence
By encouraging me to do things that my better judgment knows are wrong
Or they get really close to you and pretend to be your buddy
Only to try and find out the secret to your inner strength
Those types of people don't really love you they just want to be like you
So keep a watchful eye, those types always show signs
A lot of people know about the awesomeness of you
Because they can't handle it
They think people like me and people like you
Are too good to be true
They think that
Spending time and investing love into us will only leave them hurting and lonely
Don't be discouraged
When you find it hard to obtain love
Because as crazy as it sounds
A lot of people just can't handle
The awesomeness of me or the awesomeness of you
Also a lot of people don't understand
The awesomeness that you possess
So don't feel like they are trying to dismiss you
Its just that
Generally people don't like to cling to things that they can't comprehend
Don't take it personally when you find out certain people just can't be your friend
Whenever you need someone to talk to or lean on
Let that person be me
Because I understand what you are going through
I've been there
And I know and love the awesomeness of you because its just like the awesomeness of me

9/4/08
12:35 p.m
A letter to my Lil' bro
With awesome love,
Your big sis